What is Going On?

Why do I feel like I can't think anymore? Why has everything gotten way more complicated than it needs to be? Why can't things just go back to normal? Why can't happiness be something tangible and something we experience at the same time?...Nevertheless, TOGETHER? My mind right now feels like one of those trash compressor things smashing all of my thoughts together to where I can't even discern what's actual trash and what's something I wish didn't get in the dust pan. My heart feels like a pin cushion that is stuffed with so many pins, that there's no more room to really feel any new pin that comes in.

How is somebody supposed to know when to fight for something, or just let it go? How are we supposed to know when it's just not worth the chase anymore? How are we supposed to know if this is just a phase?

.Someone shed some insight please.

mean - p!nk

You used to hold the door for me, now you can't wait to leave
You used to send flowers if you fucked up in my dreams
I used to make you laugh with all the silly shit I did
But now you roll your eyes and walk away and shake your head

When the spark has gone, and the candles are out
When the song is done and there's no more sound
Whispers turn to yellin and I'm thinkin

How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes and everything's undone?
Is it cause we wanna be free? Well that's not me
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor like a thousand times before
Knowing that forever won't be
Always sentimental when I think of how it was
When love was sweet and new and we just couldn't get enough
The shower, it reminds me you'd undress me with your eyes
And now you never touch me and you tell me that you're tired

You know, I get so sad when it all goes bad
And all you think about is all the fun you had
And all those sorries ain't never gonna mean a thing, oh

How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes and everything's undone?
Is it cause we wanna be free? Well that's not me
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor like a thousand times before
Knowing that forever won't be

Oh, we said some things that we can never take back
It's like a train wreck tryna hit the right track
We opened up the wine and we just let it breathe,
But we shoulda drank it down while it was still sweet
It all goes bad eventually

Now do we stay together cause we're scared to be alone?
We got so used to this abuse, it kind of feels like home
But, my baby, I just really wanna know, oh,

P.S.

Prom money needs to be in ASAP. I have to pay the building on the 30th of March... so I have less than one week to collect all the money. Needless to say... this is EXTREMELY stressful right now. Pray it all goes down well.